Things that I will NOT regret...

You always think afterwards... 'I wish that I had done this or not done that'. With that brief amount of time back and forth between what I was willing to believe or accept, I had time to think about this. And so I had some thoughts about what I wanted to do when Jennifer was born still. This is a list of those things, it may not be complete. If I remember more things as I go, I will edit and add. If you know of someone that is facing an early infant death or a stillbirth, share this information with them. It can save them a lot of heartache in the long run.

I changed her clean diaper... twice.
I changed her clothes.
I talked to her and read to her and sang to her.
I stripped her completely naked and looked her over head to toe to see what looked like who...
she has my toes, his ears, etc... still trying to decide where she got the butt cheek dimples.
She stayed with me almost the eintire time, except for a brief 30-60 minutes while I showered &
got cleaned up.
I had my camera and had the nurse take some pictures & had in mind what I wanted (the cord
being cut, gunky covered baby etc...)
She layed on my chest and we 'napped' together (our eyes were closed & people left because
they thought we were asleep).
We discussed her grammy in heaven & how she was going to take care of her until I got there.
I got footprints and a lock of hair for myself and her daddy (even though he was not there).
I sent her to heaven with pictures of her siblings, her dad & I and flags of her heritage.

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I did NOT give her her bath and I truly wish that I had.
I did not get her hand prints which I really wish I had done.
I wish that I had called her daddy when it was confirmed that she was going to be stillborn &
left that choice up to him completely. I needed him there for her birth though, not just
whenever he could get there. But I could have had him call before he was leaving & if it was to
late then not have him come. But God, I needed him. WE needed a picture of the 3 of us.
I wish that I had a better picture of her and I where both of our faces are showing & there may
be one in the keepsake boxes for her daddy & I that the nurse sent me that I've not been able
to open yet.