and go to sleep and let the rest of the world go on around us. Until Jenni is home with her father or I, I just want to sleep. I am so incredibly unhappy. I find very little happiness in the other areas of my life, and yes that includes my other children. I know that makes me sound like some awful person. I do LOVE my other children and I am sure that I would feel this way if they were gone, but it's Jenni that is gone. I feel like I am dying inside and I honestly don't care to fight.
Maybe to medicine that is supposed to make me well, but makes me feel worse,,, well eventually make it all make sense. But for now, it makes me feel pretty much out of my head and that will work, at least for now.
I am sorry mommies and daddies, THIS is not how this blog was supposed to be. But I was also never supposed to have given birth to a silent baby nor was I ever supposed to lose her daddy, my best friend at the most painful time in my life either.... so I don't know what what I am supposed to do now. Please be patient with me and I will do my best to remove my head from my butt and get this back on line and do right by this blog... do right by all of my children, those here and those in heaven.... namely Angel Baby Jennifer.... DOB/DOD July 8, 2009 8:03pm
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